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{Thursday, November 19, 2009 , 9:55 PM} "想哭就哭吧，哭出来可能舒服点。
人生不是一帆风顺，路上老是遇见许多障碍与绊脚石。 会过的一定会。 伤心后站起来吧，想着开始是为了结束，不要让心太痛了。" thanks my dear serene. ur words really helped me lots. not because of you and lorrene, i think i will be mentally depressed by now. i had thought over many things.. suddenly i felt that.. i have no more time for other stuffs except for my studies. so my final decision will be.. i will quit both jobs.. Kim Gary and Wee Guan. to be fair, honestly, i think this is the best way. i won't quit one. to my dad.. pls note that dun think i will quit Kim Gary and work for Wee Guan. Never! and to my mum.. just want to let u know recently i am really very busy with my school stuffs. what the hell u think i m doin.. "wat's the matter with me?" u askin me wat's the matter? oh ya. this is all that u concern? oh please. i m god damn stressed. mentally depressed, ok! 2 presentations in one week [1 is individual] and ICA next week. all are MARKS! *important* and u guys think i m having great fun? u think i love to come home late and with a sad face like who owe me $$$ everyday? don't know what your are thinkin nowadays. not jus you all are tired and stressed. i m also facing these problems as your ok! fine.. i had sort it out. certain things i should let go previously.. i will let it go now. some one that i have to forget.. will eventually forgotten soon. just the matter of time. like my dear said, unhappiness moments will pass.. definitely will pass. don't let my heart so painful anymore. studies, is what i concern most at this age. no more talkin about love and jobs. i will just put them aside. they have created too much problems for me. unwanted and unnecessary problems that caused me so much headache. getting brain tumour like ah shun soon. not because of this quarrel with my parents, i won't be able to make my decisions so fast. summore i had been keeping all these unhappiness stuffs inside me for too long. today, finally, i seized this opportunity to cry out everything after a scolding from my parents. is they pushed me to my limit. after reading Veronika Decides to Die, i really thot of go to IMH. seriously, i m not joking. the people there are living a more carefree and relaxing life! how i wish i can be like Veronika. anyway.. one last thing i want to remind myself.. no more thinking of Teddy! |
