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23rd July 2009 {Thursday, July 23, 2009 , 8:29 PM} argh!!! i hate this stage of my life. i really hope that it can be over soon... next month i'm gonna to have my examinations. and i m very very worried. oh gosh!!! started my revision, but dunno is it enough time. regretted!!! aiya. and i seriously hate this word. this is the most "STUPID" word that i have ever come across. it is also a very stupid act. cos for me is like wat for regretting when i did not work hard in the first place... but this idiotic me seriously cannot stand my stupidity. i have done it all wrong from the beginning. dearest serene, i saw ur msg. u are not forcing me to be independent. actually the fact is, i should be independent by now. i admit that all along i was relyin on peole that i loves. over dependent on my parents, you and gina. anything that i m not happy with, don't understand, not able to do, i will look for your. i never make the effort to solve things out my own. now that i've encounter problems again and your are busy... suddenly i felt that i m LOST!!! totally lost. and wat i will do is start to cry and wanna give up. how useless can i be??? but dearest, no matter wat, i promise u... i will hang on, till the last paper. jus for a moment i will feel like givin up. but i won't give up k. if i give up, that means all the effort from last year had gone down the drain. wat i wish is to enter a poly and get a diploma. how can i give up now??? cannot!!! i promise myself, and this is a deal. i will not give up... |
